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welll.

im totally unable to get myself into the studying mode, and even thou i keep telling myself i have to have to, it aint working la.

and i realise probably subconsciously ive alr sunk myself into the thought tt i'll nvr be able to grasp all these in a short span of 11 days. and i'll NEVER be able to get myself to hit the books constantly. its a freaking torture to me, and it aint stuff like chemistry.

i take a freaking half an hour to UNDERSTAND ONE GEOGRAPHY READING.
i can hereby conclude im totally not jc material, and seeing all those reports on the newspapers arent making me feel any better. `shrugs

its like, this girl welll, had A for LIT, B for ECONS, E for GEOG, B4 for GP. and she cldnt get in any course i tnk. not very sure but i tnk no uni accepted her. its quite bad la okay, cuz its like, im gna make my decision now and im NOT gna go for my A LVLS knowing tt i wont be able to score well cuz right now im very worried no uni will take me in. then i tnk my alternatives will be to retake my a levels or go to poly.

i might as well drop out now?
pros and cons are tt, wellll. the ADULT FARE, the DISCIPLINE needed, the TRAVELLING DISTANCE, the PROJECTS, but! i'll be able to WORK! AHAH. less STRESS, and yepp.

i know i'll really disappoint my parents, esp my dad la. and my mum is not seeing any effort fr me to study. ha! difficult la. not chemistry somemore. i tnk my ideal combi nw is like, chem+math+econ, h1 geog. aha. very very moderate.

lol. and i went for emergenetics profiling and i felt stupid cuz i only had conceptual thinking only of like, 7%. HAHA..evryone had at least 2o%. i felt retarded =.= its creativity, imaginativity (if there's such a word), trying of new stuff yada yada. haha.
and i have more of the right brain dn left, which yeah. resembles more of the science stream students. im not complimenting myself because everyone KNOWS HOW EASY THE SCIENCE SUBJS ARE IN COMPARISON TO THE ARTS SUBJECTS.

yeah. im off. to continue to TRY to study. i guess the teachers in innova tnk im a failure. or welll, they predicted i am. i'll try to prove them wrong. note the word, TRY.