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hmm. andd i cant std it anymor le. haiix. today sch was GREAT. considerin the fact tt i NEED NOT BE AT HOME. wth. i don tnk i can std bein at home le..hahax. seriously wanted to stay out late today..hmm. ytd was BAD. utter crapp..hp was confiscated friday nite. im tryin to accept livin w/o it. im tryin to convince myself tt itx in custody for one mth. i jz hafta trit it as if some discipline teacher confiscatedd it n wil return aftr a mth. zou yi bu suan yi bu ba. and yes, i can stay out till 9pm tml. bdn no point since i don hv my fone. gonna b so siann larx. haiix. i wan my fone bac lar. was dam depressed ytd nite. was hopin cld wake up n feel better bdn i felt worse. fcukk. but tt ONE msg reli cheered me up loads! =D -thats how much YOU mean to me..
hmm..and i realised no matter how hard i try. no matter wad i do, it doesnt make a difference. who cares? i tried la. itx nt e first tym le. itx no wdr why i feel so freakkin useless. cuz i cant contribute at all no matter wad i do. haiix. mb my piano tcher's ryt, -one shd give up on me. itx pointless wastin tym on me since i wun learn. n yea. shes givin me up le..she donwana teach me le..im a failure at my scales. 36 OF EM. wth..appreggios. chromatics is okay. bdn. haiix. n my pieces are disastrous. expectin to fail. =X i've got less than 2weeks la. haiix. hmm. even at handlin relationships im lidat. i cant give up! i hate the restrictions. i hate myself. i hate bein so useless. welll. mb i shall be better a few days ahead. hope so. aces day rehearsal's on tml, -cant go out..w..someone..le..yeahh. i cant stop loving you..all i ever need, is only YOU.
mmm. n ahma, thanks -i mean it. =) n also those hu hv nv fail to stand by me. you all rockk. no matter how bad i get you all are always there. i really appreciate tt. n JIAYAN! thanks for the initial D cd. omg. kinda..touchedd lehh. hehez.

/give me the chance to love you, take care of you, and most imptly, -to make you happy?