100814 - I hang on to every single word,

which pierces through the heart like a thousand and one really, really sharp arrows. It's a really lousy explanation, but I can't find any other way to describe it. Its so painful, but all I can tell myself is, I deserve this and Nothing more. I deserve this because I have proved myself unworthy of what I was given. I deserve this because I ruined everything in my own hands. I deserve this because, I don't deserve you anymore.