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maybe all i wanted was just a sense of belonging,
we had the can-do spirit.
but beyond there, probably there lies hyprocrisy, or truth, eitherway, i don't know.

its hard to tell a person nowadays.
those that you understand, those that you know,
you probably don't get to see them as much,
or by some luck,
Lost them.

i lost.

a part of me wished i still belonged there,
not that im not happy with what i have,
i am grateful for it.
but i still wished, us,
that we still belonged together,
because somehow, it feels like i spoilt things on my own.
i spoilt things for the others too.
because i should have realised, getting involved to someone that close, was dangerous.
when you lose one, people see you different because now, from their end, they know more than just you as a friend.
Now they know you as a Lover, as a Partner.
they see how you behave in relationships, they may or may not detest you or lookdown on you for that.
its a whole different situation.

maybe i regretted.
but then again,
i don't really know.
were we that strong enough to withstand this?

then again , i went out to look for something else that was true,
i had it, but i lost it.
when i thought you were the one that would give me everything.
when i took you for the one where i revolved my world around,
you left.

enough of self pitying.
totally, lowdown behaviour.
it ends here.