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today at office,
the place where i wanted to get out since a few months back,
the calls i'm sick of answering,
the advices i'm sick of giving,
i felt like staying for another month more.

i'v always, always disliked changes.
i don't like it when we move on to another part of our life,
like from primary, to secondary, from secondary, to JC,
i'v been there for five months,
tho the friendships i gained weren't probably as strong as those in Robinsons,
but the long period of time there gives familiarity, comfort and the most hated you'l-always-be-there.
because just now when i stepped out of office, after CHY gave me a farewell letter, i felt a pull at my heart.

honestly, i'm kind of glad, fie became our Sup for the last week i was there, because it means i had more chances to talk to her, although she was always the next cubicle away.
although probably when we're out of office, fie will be the one who will talk the least, but its better than nothing.
i bet nobody got what i meant , but yeah, fie will be one of those i'l miss, she's a real office mate, the one that makes your time in office run faster, make your days in office more interesting.
we had sheena, yvonne, hanyang, melissa lee, charlene hwang, sarina, elvan, zihui, twinkemandy, lisian, marilyn.
plus all the random people over the places, they will form part of my memory somehow.

XT our ex Sup was lenient, talked nicely, and yeah, hahah.
charlene will be a roomie, whereas almost the rest will be in NTU,
although we are always saying we'l meet up, we'l go out,
but how often do we really do that,
i'v given up believing in such stuff, because ultimately we do drift.
talk about Drift,
how often will people put in the effort to prevent that from happening?

you're a sweet dream,
or a beautiful nightmare.

this long holiday,
has been one with many changes.
and after im in Nie,
i won't know what awaits me,
but i know i will be shutting myself up alot more,
because im too tired to go out there to forge friendships,
to try to get things to work anymore.

thats how much things changed.

Life sucks.
and dude? i heard that response. sometimes you have to admit it Does.

and to be honest?
i'm not looking fwd to July.