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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISHY! :)

when they said there was karma...or was it retribution..
did they mean this?

sigh.
for all that im going through, i probably deserve it all.
because of how stubborn i am,
because of how thick my skin is,
because of how sticky, just like a leech i am,
because of how impossible i can get.
it's how i never ever listen to anything, all the things i should do i don't.
ain't i, really, a disappointment?

it's all over.
maybe i hold on too tight,
maybe the sand theory is working.
maybe...
it's all just me.
i gotta learn how to be responsible for my own actions.

i have no more to lose already.
no more.
when i had just started to think i finally found some meaning, that i was so lucky,
its all gone.

at least it happened :)

if only we could be like how we were..
if only.

when priorities treat you as an option,
hey its time to wakeup.
and see that,
its not working.
it has never did.
shan asked, how much more do you want to lose, anet, how much more?
how do i lose when i have nothing more to?
shan said, anet your blardy thickskinned. you are just like a leech.
thats why i have become such a disappointment.
buddy asked, why can't it just get to you?
because i never liked facing the truth.
sigh.
when reality hits you in the face, what else can you do?
its there.
it has always been there.
i just decided to close both my eyes.
i can't anymore.
everytime it hits me back,
it hurts double.

a-l-e-v-e-l-s.

if only i had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else.
if you keep asking me, i'll melt away in the summer air.
i'll be gone.

My tears run down like razorblades

And no, I'm not the one to blame it's you

or is it me?

And all the words we never say

Come out and now we're all ashamed

And there's no sense in playing games

When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?

We had the chance to make it

Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over

I wish that I could take it back

But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights

I lose my sense of wrong and right

I cry, I cry

It's shaking from the pain that's in my head

I just wanna crawl into my bed

And throw away the life I led

But I won't let it die,

but I won't let it die

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart

Don't say this won't last forever

You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart

Don't tell me that we will never be together

We could be, over and over

We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over

Unless you let it take you

It's not over, it's not over, it's not over

Unless you let it break you

It's not over

secondhandserenade itsnotover

there's just too much thoughts running through.

obviously my sense of right and wrong has gone haywired,

i've never been more lost.