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because these days aren't easy like they have been once before,
these days aren't easy anymore.

why do you do this to me?
why do you this so easily?
you make hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe.
i should have known this wasn't real and fought it off,
fought to feel, what matters most?

eve's right.
i miss how you could just shout it all out,
scream like madness,
do all the retarded stuff and not have anyone looking at you like you've done something weird.

in short, i miss PHS.
sigh.
bring me back, bring us back.
all to where we once belonged.
where everything felt so good.
where the thoughts of studying didn't lie at the back of our minds constantly.

when i was only wondering how much could one lose a few entries ago,
i lost something more.
when i already knew there was nothing much i could lose.
sigh.
i'll make it better.
i'll try.
maybe it's just me.
maybe i shouldn't even be brought into this place.

one week is asdjasfdasldflwoeraefasdljfbasdf LONG.
sigh.
imissyouhaoxianghaoxiangni,
my angel.

why is it raining only today when there's no school?
ay, that reminds me, we gotta pull the ponies tmr!
LOL wtheck.

the only best thing to look fwd to now would be 31st.
being eve's daddy and dinner! :D
and seeing buddy tmr. :)

and someday,
i promise i'll be gone.