2oo5o7--2

i really dont know why im still, crying like an idiot for you.
i feel so really useless.

i feel damn crapped i worked myself and pushed myself that hard. i wld say your name to myself and thats all i needed for strength for more theories and formulas . imagine that. your name. ive never strived tt hard before. im not a blardy smart kid who can get the 3 a1s i got . it was you.

and now you are changing everything.
i know you dont care.

i know you dont need me.
you never did.

you bring me up, throw me down.
im left to blame myself for everything that has happened.

im left to fend for myself...

i want my 29o4 , my ajc, my working friends,
i want you.
i love you, the you who loved me just as much. did you?