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life cant get any worse right now.

you'll never know how it feels to be rejected;
you'll never know how it feels to be disappointed again and again, AND AGAIN;
you'll never know how terrible it is when you've put all ur hope on it but it crashes right in front of you;
you'll never know how difficult it really is to pick yourself up every time you fall, and i mean literally too;
you'll never know how it feels to have talked to the HOD of SCIENCE, the VP, and still, nth works;
you'll never know how it feels WHEN THE BLACK AND WHITE IS NOT MEANT;
you'll never know how it feels to have ur family at its worse right now;
you'll never know how it feels to have been thrashed agn, agn AND AGAIN;
you'll never know how nice it is to be w the ajc people;
you'll never know how belonged they make you feel;
you'll never know how devastating it was to be leaving them;
you'll never know how it feels to be missing someone so much you would even take a plane over;
you'll never know how it feels to be wo 29o4;
you'll never know how it feels to barge inside an ongoing LT and get a freaking scolding when nothing was mentioned when you first stepped in;
you'll never know how it feels to be the only one in your secondary sch uniform;
you'll never know how it feels when the whole world asks why arent you in your uniform;
you'll never know how it feels when you've finally got the uniform, but you dont get a fcuking chance to wear it;
you'll never know how it feels when you have to wear the uniform in secret cuz you're afraid of being oblivious to all the teachers in your secondary school;
you'll never know how it feels when i really needed you there to hug;
you'll never know how it feels like wanting to just jump off and end it all;
you'll never know how it feels to have tutorials AFTER tutorials piling up, depriving you of even SLEEP;
you'll never know how it sucks not being able to perform ur best in every single basketball match and always dragging the team down;
you'll never know how it feels seeing just black around you and no light , no angels anymore as i used to have;
you'll never know how it feels doing a subject you never even wanted to do;
you'll never know how it feels when you know you're not gonna do well for the a levels;
you'll never know how it feels when i missed by just 2 points i wld have gotten by joining a cca and get into SAJC and not typing all these YOU NEVER KNOWs;
you'll never know how fcuking stressed and depressed i am now.

i need you. but the way i need you, i'll never get.