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okay. im so darn pissed alright.
its 1.37am.
im supposed to be on why singapore merged w msia and broke off ltr on. -.-
merger and separation is kinda. urgh. THE WHOLE CHAPT'S really long. i tnk memorising srilanka and the water jordon etc de is so much easier.
haha. nvm la. must love sg right?
okay. so im damn pissed. at myself esp. and my sister.
MY SISTER'S TOTALLY HOGGING ONTO THE COMPUTER. i had tuition today and my sister actually had the whole time at home up till 10 to use the comp. i just wanted to use it for awhile just now and when she signed into msn and saw one of her friends online , she kept asking me whn i needed to use e comp till. I GOT SO IRRITATED I STOOD UP AND GAVE UP THE WHOLE COMP TO HER. alright. the point here is NOT the comp. i mean. hog the comp all she wants. MOVE THE WHOLE FCUKING COMP OUT AND HOG ALL SHE WANTS! I CANT FCUKING USE THE ROOM WITH HER AROUND. I CANT CONCENTRATE OKAY. SHES LIKE. DISTRACTING ME EVERY SINGLE MINUTE IF IM IN THE ROOM. IF I ACTUALLY PACK UP AND MOVE ALL MY STUFFS TO THE BEDROOM, I END UP FALLING ASLP. yes yes, its my fault. cuz i don have any fcuking selfcontrol. SELFCONTROL.
and wow, i just got scolded by my mum, and my sister flared up upon hearing me complain abt her. RIGHT. so it all comes to my self control.
lol. i promised myself, i promised you. yet i lose my self control just lidat. i really hate myself. can not, must not, should not done the stuffs i promised not to. YET I DID.
self control. i slpt in class due to e lack of self control. yet i come back n mourn and do wad shit? like mourning helps in my o levels.
argh. im kinda getting really stressd. cuz i realise dere's really very little time left le. maybe im wasting too much quality time. bdn up till now, all i ever did revision was for maths. and it was for some stupid geometrical circle tng. i took..a few days to finish tt small little exercise? yah. and whn i see another geometrical circle qn today, i actually COULD NOT FIGURE IT OUT. guess how much i really hated myself at tt time. plus, i was feeling like shit before tt le.
lol. im not exactly, studying o levels for e sake of o levels. i dont know how to put it. cuz if it was lidat, or it were for myself, i wldnt bother to go stress so much. haha. dont know why. im throwing my future away, i noe. haha. probably if i end up in some lousy tertiary education tngy dn i'll regret? LOL.
im off le. i seem to be self pitying. -.-