26o4o6

26o4o6
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAILING!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IMELDA!
lol. hope it was quite a gd day for her no matter wad yahh. =)
hmmm. jz reached home nt long, n im halfway on my fnn. yup fnn. aha. i finally managed to make myself get down to it, but i gt distracted somehow. tt explains why im here yah. LOL!
SCHOOL WAS alright as usual today. I HAD A FREE KAYATOAST! HAHAHAHA.
n mrhui seemed nice today. lol. cuz we were talkin bt some haogan aka gd impression cum admiration tng. lol. dn we were lik. e real meanin of admirin doesnt mean u lik e person yah? bdn it sounds weird if we sy 'i admire you, but i dont like you'. lol. somehow it jz doesnt go well tgt lei. duno why. LOL. so we were lik. wo xing shang ni, ke shi wo bu xi huan ni. dn mrhui was writin e maths answers on e board whn he sdnly turned n repeated wad we said.(e one in chinese) dn he was lik, its okay wad. why cnt lidat say. lol. MRHUI EAVESDROP. ahahaha. he said we were talkin too loud lah. bdn surprisingly he din scold us or sth lor. hahax. ohwell.somehow wednesdays lessons don seem tt draggy anymore le. guess its a gd tng anw yah. hmmm. dn durin physics mrtan e cute old man was damn funny..ohwait. my windowsmediaplayer damn zun. it jz played yiyuanyuyangadriano's c'estsibon, dn nw itx playin 5566's c'estsibon. lol. hmmm. OKAY. nt funny. hmmm. yea. mrtan. haha. cuz tt tym he called us go see him aftr sch, n yusong din go. so mrtan was askin us, wad do u tnk i shd do w him? dn cheyenne said hug him. wad made us laugh was whn he really went to hug him. LOL! dn yuenchen said cheyenne shd hv said kiss him.rwahahax. hmmm. dn aftr sch we cut kailing's choc cake. whoa. damn nice. e layer on top of e cake was lik, totally chocolate n it was hard. haha.hmmm. and e official smashin of cake. fishy did it. hahaahx. jz b4 kailing intended to blow out e candles, fishy smashed e cake right into her face. it was socalled - sa ren bu zha yan. HAHAHA. dn kailing started makin ppl back. lol. almost all kana la. some even had stains on their shirt. lol. dn phebe nv kana, so she was lik. ni men zhen de zha wo wo hui fa pi qi de ah. hahax. dn whn kailing acually smeared some cake on phebe's face phebe din noe wad to do. haha.so we were cheering phebe on to actually flare up. lol. dn phebe was damn hilarious cuz she was lik, ni men yao wo sheng qi wo PIAN BU YAO LEH! haha. phebedajiejie winner le. lol. she shd b sayin of cuz ryt nw if shes readin this. lol.
hmmm. dn aftr tt we went to marinasq. ahhuh ahhuh. whoa. iwanewholetopshop. okay. tt particular section only. HAHAHA. went into topshop to change kailing's present..hahax. really tnk kailing shd hv more confidence in herself! cuz she cn wear those clothes de lahhh. ohwell..dn walked ard abit la. din really hv much tym le..n we were kinda rushed. evrybody runnin outta tym le..yep..hmmm..dn kailing gt scamd. lol.cuz her new neeon was orange n ey told kailing it was red. hahax. i tnk itx quite oKAY anw. hehh. hmmm..aftr tt chiong back home.lol. we TOTALLY COULDNT EVEN SQUEEZE IN tt train towards e train which is terminatin at yishun,nt to sy e one terminatin at jurongeast. ohwell. we ended up takin back to marina bay. we had to la. or we'll b sittin dere for idunohowlong. lol. n i sorta, went crazy on e train. stuck myself on e train door. bdn e mood was abit zhao la..so..MUST SMILE LA! evrybody muz smile smile smile. hehhhehhheh. HAHA. SAID STH n i gt pinched lik siao. hmmm. haiix. don wan go tnk la. shangxinshi. =/ hmmm..dropped off w wenqi at tpy..she went to meet her mum n sis n dn i came home and came up w a reli lousy lie.damn. i reli din wana lie la..guess i socalled had to bah. bdn e lie worked thru anw. HENG lor. hopefully i nid nt lie agn le..-i told my mum i lost my keys. LOL.
haiix. those stupid feelings comin bac altgt le. jz rereadin all those stuffs ..tells alot la. lol..hmmm. jiushi..zheyang lorx. haha. dere's really tngs i wana write out but i duno how to put em into words la. haiix. ohyeah. kinda lik, xiwangyueda shiwangyueda bah. lik all along it was tot tt it was over, but whn evryth jz comes back outta a sudden, itx e pressure n evryth la. nt pressure la..its e..lik. kinda cant accept it tt tngy. n whn observation is done all over agn, it is realised that yea..it was true tt no, it was NEVER over. to tnk i was so ..haiix. i knew it. shdnt hv..put in so much hope la. haiix. humans r contradicting. ey noe it, but ey stil instill hope in it. lol. but itx hope tt makes some ppl able to live thru la. lik..if u hope dn u hv e strength to carry on? its like, sth to look fwd to. ahhuh. ttx it. btw..tangyu xiaobao said sth bt disappointment becomin a routine..n ive guessed i unwillingly and unknowingly made it a routine myself le. haiix..duno duno duno. im shutting off for today le. enuf tnkin done for e day. hmmm.
alrights. hmmm..hv been writin consecutively these few days. hahax. OMG. e yongbuyanbai tt rongming and e other guy DAMN FUNNY, -the way ey sang budebuai. LOL! kk. go first le..fnn ahhh. n tonight's dachangjin..ulalaulala..lol..
iknowthatallalongiiwashopingfortoomuch...tosaythetruth....justseeingthesmileonyourfacetellsmeeverythingsworthit..nomatterhowmanyhoursofentertaininghowmanyhoursofhumouringoranythingelsethatihaftado..aslongasiseethesmileonyourface..itsmorethanenough............you'llneverknowhowmuchireallyloveyou..howmuchireallywanttohaveyou..howmuchiwannamakeyousmileforeverandeverandeverandeveranever..ilufae.....................
25o4o6 : 21o8
COMP'S TERRIBLY OUT. either tt or blogger was reli lag ytd....cuz my comp hanged a total of i duno how many tyms le. darn. ohwell. haiix. i duno la. hmmm. kk. so ..today...e adults r STILL WARPED. wth? adults oso hv PMS. hehheh. damn. ey r lik, crazy lo . n ey assume LOTSA stuffs. haha. bdn mrwhite's was trying to make us high durin english today. lol. bdn we kinda..gave him a blank look for a response. dn he said we shd go hospital n get e..wad u cal tt. e tng ttx used to relive ppl whn ey r dyin de. tt tng tt cn make e whole body shake. yuppyupp. he said we shd go for tt. hahax. n wake up n stop starin back at him. lol. lol. msyeo called me out durin ss. said i was owaes slpin durin her lessons. lol. i don hv any periods tt im able to slp in. argh. lol. i sound as if i go to sch to slp. ohwell. dn ..we were late for acs la. HAIX. don say le. can go crazy. sick n tired le lah. hiyoz. dn we stood outside lo..n dere were these few ppl whom i guess had nth to do bah..cuz ey were throwin insults. ohwell. hmmm..i stil don uds lorx wad did she see in him bah. damn. ohwell. itx stil unbelievable la. hmmm. dn had doublechi. dn maths. hmm..did maths paper. hmmm..i'd rather do a paper dn hv him to teach la. cant std hvin lessons. esp maths lessons. ohwell.
aftr sch had to chiong acs n chicompo..dn went town to get kailing's present. hehh .she shd b proud of em worr. we overturned e whole town for her. ahahax. nt tt serious la, but..yah. hope she likes em lor. someone's bday tml - LOL! hmmm. kla. tt was a short entry. go first le.
ithurtsseeingyoulidatandnotbeingabletohelp..ttxhowuselessiget.icnnevermakeyousmile..
24o4o6 : 2oo7
argh. for e almost millionth tym, im sayin tis agn - my comp's seriously screwd. it restarted..a total of 4 tyms b4 i got it to work. -_-. ohwell.
today was okay la. great relief fr last friday . hehh. friday was a reli bad day somehow. and itx a gd tng cuz im lik, EARLY FOR SCH TODAY! hahaha. aftr so long. n REALLY EARLY. hehh. geog lessons r becomin entertainin. hahax. cuz mrlau's super entertainin. lol. n he practically gave us e qns for e midyrs. ohwell. might as well use it since itx alr dere. LOL! hmmm. i was totally selfentertaining today la. durin recess nobody bothered to listen to me. lol. sort of, immune to my voice liau. cuz i'll be rantin on n on n on n on. ahaha. I LOVE ENTERTAINING. hahax . lol. my lessons aftr recess were baibaibailanlan. lol. wenqi came up w it lo. hahax. tnk itx darn funny. phebe's one is shuoshuoshuolanlan. hahax. managed to slp abit aftr finishin up e english compre test. HEHHEH. mmm. dn aftr sch went to lunch w my dad. my dad..wants me to go to JC n dn to e U. ohwell. i duno la. stil undecided lorx. n im convinced im nt cutout for studying. i don exactly enjoy studyin la. n goin to JCs n Us r lik, hafta memorise lotsa stuffs de? yeahh. i enjoy more practical stuff bah. those tt nid no memorising. mmm. sth lik acs. e tng's alr dere those kind..v..ohyea. systematic. HAHAH. took me so long to get tt word. ohwell. i wun b in 4joy if i cld study. hehheh. yeah. sorta qiao zha my dad cuz i went to pizzahut to eat. haha. nw i feel guilty. n he actually managed to get a second hlpin of e soup. LOL! funny la. bdn it was kinda nice bein w him . ahhhuh. hes my dad aftr all la. lol.
dn went to cwp to meet e gang. lol. ey were lamin. cheyenne hlpd take my place in laming n got scolded. HAHA..FINALLY SOMEONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL. lol. okayokay. =/. hahax. dn i went dere to claim back my place. lol. kiddin la. yah. muz tnk of some chuang xin methods to lame le. cuz my laming all guo shi le. lol. lamechop la. mmm. dn went walkwalk. haha. phebe ey al supposed to study de. haha. end up nv. hmmm. dn it started to rain heavily whn we were on e way home .bdn i guess a little rain at tyms doesnt really matter. i caught some rain la. itx kinda nice to be in e rain at times. hahax. kla. go firx le. cia0z

22o4o6 : 21o2
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE!
sorry tt i cant msg u yah..haiix.
ohwell. i deserve tis. hmmm. another two days more and i'll wld hv had lived a week wo hp. gettin used to it le larx. not feelin s handicapped anymore. but wo hp..alot of other stuffs r hpn-in out dere ..n tt includes e drift ive gt e fear of. ohwell.
nth lah. haiix. if i don tnk dn itx nth lor. hahax. yah. hmmm. woke up early in mornin to go shao mu. LOL! yahyahyah. its like so long after le..hahax. it was damn hot la..n i wasnt exactly helpin out much. lol. evry year i go dere im distracted. ahax. e past few yrs i was owaes playin w my hp. tis yr i was bz w party room. lol. e book's nice. ohwell. yah. hehheh. dere's tis song ringin in my head..

its amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying the words, you can light up the dark
try as i may, i can never explain
what i hear when you dont say a thing

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's the truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says that you'll catch me
where ever i fall
you say it best
when you say nothing at all

all day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near
you drown out the crowd
try as they may, they can never define
whats been said between your heart and mine

RONANKEATINGwhenyousaynothingatall

lol. somehow. tis song jz..ahhuh. came into my mind. n it has been singin n singin inside dere.LOL. yeah. i like e lyrics too. lol.
my sister is seriously gettin on my nerves. even my mum allowed me to talk on e fone, and she hang up my calls. darn. forget it. haiix.hmmm. TANGYUXIAOBAO DIED FOR AHNU. haiix. so weida lo. hmmm. cai bu tou de dong xi bu yao cai, xiang bu tong de dong xi bu yao xiang. ru guo zong yao, shi ji cheng shou hou, zhi ran hui ling wu. LOL! yueru said sth lidat.
i tnk evrybody's really stressed lately. even i myself am startin to feel lik crying at times nowadays for no reason. okay la. mb nt totally no reason la. came to realise sth disturbin..ohwell. somethingS disturbin..=/. fated la. some tngs cnt run away de. hmm.im doncare. im not tnkin anymore. mmm. im stil feelin sad for tangyu xiaobao. hahax. kks la. go first le. cia0z.
i..dunowadtofeelanymore..idontwannathinkanymore.
21o4o6 : 1935
TODAY IS A FREAKING BAD DAY.
FCUK EVRYTH.
FCUK ALL THOSE WHO SCOLDED ME TODAY. lol. itx obvious enuf which ppl im trying to scold.
AHAHA.
hmmm. for some reasons tt i do not noe, im seriously really irritated today. and super restless.hmm. kks. so i woke up late in the morning. hv been wakin up late recently. and im fcukin irritated cuz im alr late for 3days le. my name's in e blardy latecoming book for 3tyms le. IM GONNA DIE. im fearin monday. reli scared. if im really gona be late for another tym God noes wad wil hpn. im alr..late for a total of 8th tyms accordin to eve's calculation. okay. so send me for detention. CALL MY MUM UP LAH. ASK HER THROW MY SHOES AWAY AGAIN LAH.
ive been sayin tt e whole day. darn. wad hpns today is i went into e class,late. had tis councillors' meetin n i din went for it. mrs tan was at e meetin. duno wad wil hpn if i went in. mmm. aftr goin into e cls, tis dumb someone asked eve n me to go in front and sit agn. ahhuh. we went in front and sit. we were practically falling aslp. then he was talking crap. the mornin was okay. PE was okay. until recess.
@#$%^*&#
I HATE THIS SUPER UNFAIR WORLD.
I HATE ******.
I DONT WANT TO.
why cant i jz let everything go?
haiix. it jz hpns. itx a darn blardy tng tt owaes hpn. ohwell. how unfair can this world get. i don wanna care.
i really DONT WANT TO CARE.
i cant. i end up realisin i jz cant make myself stop caring. haiix.
after recess,
physics. I CLDNT DO THE DUMB TEST. hvnt gt an idea how to do physics at ALL. okay. then e phy tcher asked to see us aftr sch. somehow i jz got super irritated. can sy i was irritable today bah. it seems as if im offendin tchers all ard no matter wad i do. dn i was like. k. so wad did we do wrong agn. call my mum up lah. complain to her lah. ask her throw my shoes again lah. darn! dn i started eating. yah it was MY FAULT FOR EATING IN CLASS. apparently some constructors complained bt us littering ard e place. ALRIGHT. now dere's no more eatin in kls. for once n for all.
poa was a total disaster. ms cheong was lik. who never finish up their acs homework pls get out of e kls. by then i was super irritated le, so I WAS THE FIRST TO STAND UP AND LEAVE. dn she ask us to get our stuffs out tgt to finish up our homework. im not tryin to be a showoff la, but acs USED TO BE e ONLY subj im gd in..haiix..n now i cant even do e dumb homework. alr, ttx a fcukin big tng to me. I DIN DO IT CUZ I DIN NOE HOW TO DO RIGHT. practically 29 outta 29 outside were dere cuz they had no idea how to do it at all. OKAY. SO IT WAS OUR FAULT CUZ WE DIN NOE HOW TO ASK. WE NEVER TAKE INITIATIVE. alright. and mscheong came out n told me she cld hear my voice lik crazy. lol. i was kb-in out dere bah. dn she asked me to go in. tel me its as if im e leader out dere, leadin e bunch of ppl not doing homework. haiix. wadever le la. blardy hell. how are we supposed to let e teachers uds. WE WANNA STUDY. WE GIVE A DAMN BOUT OUR Os. apparently e teachers don tnk tt way. it was even tot we drank water to spite e tchers..
haiix. hiyoz. jz let em tnk wadever ey wan. im tired le. tired of evry single tng. tired of school tired of my mum tired of tis unfair world tired of..throwin facts agn n agn back into my face. tired of..............
ohwell. aftr sch went to sunplaza w wenqiahma..ahma alr start looking for ingredients and recipies for her fnn le. haiix. im kinda. stressd. my fnn coursework is way behind tym. my TA is half completed, survey is half completed...........................................and..im not doin anyth still. i went for tuition ytd..n i cldnt std e way my tcher looked at me. haiix. i cld actually tel he doesnt expect me to pass tis midyr. im a freakin gone case for my maths. and i wrote dere, IM REALLY REALLY GONNA STUDY. lol. n gettin e exam timetable today doesnt make tngs any better. BLARDY HELL. ive only gt..one week plus to study for fnn bah. yah.
hmmm. went to e library . ahma was lookin for her fish n shellfish books. lol. e pictures dere super temptin. hmmm. dn on e way home i tnk i irritated wenqi. ahaha. i was restless n kept doin big actions..n kept ka-jiao-in her. sry..hmmm. n i came home, my sister started rantin at me. WTF IS WRONG WITH HER. i don owe her a living. hmmm. and she bangs e comp like no one's business.lol. as if bangin e comp wil work. -_-. wadeverla. kla. i go first le. haiix.
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19o4o6 : 2022
lol. now tt im writin tis, i realised i hv nt wished yusong happy birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUSONG!
lol. tt'll do. hehh. ohwell. am back fr sports day cum thanksgivin cum IFD cum POP . lol. see how e sch squeezed evryth into a day? lol. anw. gotta do tis fast. gona die if my sis wakes up . hmmm. hvn been able to update this week cuz of evryth's ttx hpn-in at home. ohwell. shant say much..jz adds onto my stress larx. haiix. had a quarrel w my mum. am feelin guilty cuz i tnk itx my fault lorrx. yahh. so..haiix. oso duno how..now havin cold war lorx. totally not talkin to my mum at all. hmmm.
im lucky i managed to wake up today mornin larx. watched e POP firz tng. lol. tnk it was okay bahh. v fun to throw caps. haha. lik how many tyms in ur life do u get to do tt? yah. dn looked ard for e foodfest n went up to hall for thanksgivin. hehheh. we were lik, super kiasu n ran lik shat to get seats at e front, n turns out, we were sittin at e prizewinners' seats. lol. so paisehh lor. hahaha. we had to go to e back cuz 4J was one of e last classes la. so SHAOXIN . lol. aftr e ceremony dn it was e IFD celebration. haha. salsa rocks! lol.
dn we were dismissed le. went to pizza hut. hahax. crappd alot. told e whole story of e quarrel between my mum n me. and....till nw i stil duno whether sHE believes wad i said nt. hmmm..had been tnkin bt it for quite some tym le. hopefully if she reli noes sth or wad she'll come n ask? haha. lik, how shes gonna ask anw. haiix. i duno la duno la. in e first place i din wana say at all, n im STILL decided on not sayin. so..yup. see how tngs go lor..since....sooner or ltr she'll find out anw. so, doesnt reli matter la. haiix. yup. lol. whn we left pizzahut we even ALMOST forgot to pay. hahahax. dn we walked to e stadium..but had dropped by e library b4 tt..we reached e stadium at 3, n turns out, THE WHOLE TNG HASNT EVEN STARTED YET. lol. ey must b waitin for us to start. hehheh. xDD. chhou mei. lol. hmmm. tis yr de sports day reli messy wor. hmmm. n it seems as if only e competitors emself were participatin. hmmm. ohwell. waited kinda long for e 4x100metres relay. hmmm. n i cldnt sit still somehow. so i was walkin all ard, n dere were so many ppl givin support whn ey knew we were runnin. haha.n im super touched. THANKS PPL! lol. n dn...we ran! this yr no bangbang lor. LOL!! TALKING ABOUT BANGBANGS--- lamechop la. ~zhe yi ci bang xia yi ci bang` lol. hmmm..as in, tis yr no gun. it was whistle. hahax. even at e startin line i cldnt stand still la. was socalled socialising al ard. hmmm..we got..e last for e relay la..BUT..we may nt be e first but we are e best! relay is a 4ppl tng. itx either evrybody's fault or noone's fault mah. haha. WE STILL ROCK!..hmmm. haha. we din win but we got mrstan's crackers n lollipops. MRS TAN GAVE ME A LOLLIPOP! lol. she gave phebe crackers. haha. whn she wanted to gif phebe lollipop phebe was lik tellin her she hafta climb stairs if she ate tt. lol. hmmmm. we were lik. kinda sad we din win la..dn aftr tt xiaoli come ask us whether wan run relay for cca ma. dn we ran agn!! hehheh. tis tym, we got 2nd! lol. but we din had any trophy thou..hmmm.
n i still cant uds it. n i doubt i'll ever wil. i don even wan to uds it. the world's unfair. puttin in effort n nt puttin in anyeffort. e one tt din put in any effort gt more outta it. i jz. haiix. i hafta accept it la. ttx who i am, wad i am.in wad right n wad position am i to expect so much? yealor. so thats it la. go firz le. cia0z.
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