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i woke up in the middle of the night . ?! . lol. 3.15am. ahhhax.
hmmm..managed to read phebe's blog and abit of eve's blog UNTIL MY COMP SHUT DOWN ON ME. darn. realised i actually missd alot of e chalet. yupp yupp. bdn guess..i shdnt like. blame my mum too much larx. cuz itx my fault for lyin to her in the first place. n i shdnt hv tried to get cheyenne n ahma to hlp lie for me la..n i actually gt pissd at ahma whn she did wad she was supposed to do. hmm. actually i reli hope i cn actually not lie to my mum..cuz it reli makes me feel so bad at times whn i lie to her. ohyah. anw, BOTH MY PHONES ARE CURRENTLY UNDER CUSTODY. by my DEAREST MUM. =). yah. I WAN EM BACK BADLY!! i reli don wana lie lor. bdn sometimes i tnk if i don..she wun let me do e stuffs i wan. e chalet reli meant alot to me la. 2GRACEo4 leii. i love em so much la . bdn if i had told her in e firz place exactly who was goin..i don tnk she'll allow. n in e first place..i reli don see anyth wrong talkin on e fone. probably e tym's nt ryt..bdn cn one choose e tym to feel depressed? itx lik..e generation gap makes it so hard to talk to ur parents.andd y do parents forever tnk ey uds us e best..cuz ey r actually e ones hu fail to uds me.hmmm..imagine me tellin my mum bt some lame joke? i cant even imagine tt le..much less imagine myself tellin her bt my stuffs. lik wad. i saw this guy today. he's so CUTE! haha. like i'll ever say tt. bdn kwon sangwoo's cute. he has a reli nice smile. haha. so does mingdao. no la. i mean its like..i jz cant talk to her lorx. yupp. n..i don bliev whn she was young she talked to her parents bt her stuff de la. i jz wanna say. i don nid much freedom.(for now. haha.) hmm..i nid my privacy..AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE. PLEASE. ttx e tng i wan most. leave my frens alone. i don mind u groundin me.and don go thru my inbox n my call register lik nobody's business. jz don go thru my photos, my videos, my evryth n del em off s n whn u wan to. u don trust me at all. hw m i supposed to tel u e truth whn u don trust me? tt sounds contradictin. n somewad profound. lol.
n i HATE MY SISTER. i really do. i told my mum tt today. she told me not to use e word HATE. if only she sees hw my sister treats me. im nt my sister's dog, her maid or her playtoy esp. i don nid to b questioned by her. haiix. and SHE HAS NO RIGHTS TO USE MY PHONE AND THEN ASK ME WHY I TOUCH IT WHEN I DO SO. WTH. WILL SHE BLARDY HELL PAY IF SHE SPOILS IT? AND WHO ALLOWED HER TO LOOK AT MY PHOTOS?! SHE'S A BIG SUCKER. and to tnk my mum allows her to use it even those she noes my sis wun treat it properly. wTH.
tt was mean. haha. i don care. i wun care for someone hu treats me lik a criminal. i refuse to admit tt she's my sister. haiix. sorry. bdn i reli had enough of u le. DON EAVESDROP ON MY FRIENDS. THEIR STUFF IS NOT FOR YOU TO HEAR. DON EAVESDROP ON ME. MY STUFF IS NOT FOR YOU TO HEAR EITHER. n stop holdin onto my hand n drag me all ard la. itx disgustin la. =X hmmm. now i sound reli mean. lol. ohyahh. anw. i realised my mum eavesdrops on me too lorx..tt day i was talkin. dn whn i finished talkin and went out she started naggin. n she nagged bt those tngs i told ahma. dn i was lik. WTH? hw did she noe. i din expect her to eavesdrop oso..haiix. duno la. can only say tt chalet tng made my mum hu din trust me mb nv ever trust me agn. im worried i cant go for nex yr's chalet. reli worried. bdn nex yr im tellin her e truth le. tellin her evryone's goin..dn see how lorx. hmm. betcha she wldnt agree to let me go le. wellll. let nature take its course bahh. tt wil owaes be a way out de. itx a gd tng my frens r owaes dere no matter wad hpns..love you ppl loads..and i owe ahma,kailing wenqi e most le. aha. those 3 hu communicated most w my mum. haiix. can only say i hv a v strong sense of guilt towards e e 3 of yall. n i owe u yall alot. really. thanks.
and daddy, haha. you rock. thanks. haha. only if he'll ever see this.
mum..if only i cld try talk to you. i never will be able to. haiix.
for _____.. i love you more than anyth else le. i wil gif evryth else up for you.
2GRACEo4 . woainimen. =D. nimenshitouwodeshijie .
i woke up....and the first person i tot of, was YOU. *imy