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backgrd music nw is na nu hai dui wo shuo. eve's fave. haha. mmm. feelin v v v tired nw. haha. muz b cuz of tt aces day exercise narhh. chunfu made damn sure we memorized e whole tng by heart lor. gt one mistake hafta redo. haha. dn come home kana kb. wth. its kinda like. i duno wads wrong w my parents. bdn we kids arent dead, r we? i hate seein ur quarreling. thou i cant do anyth. bdn i saw e tng my mum was sendin to e lawyer's.itx exaggeratin. i don spend like, 30 bucks a month for a pair of spectacles. do i chng my specs evry single mth? n i paid for my contact lenses myself. shes claimin it fr my dad. i dONT SPEND 4OO A MONTH ON TUITION DARNit. its 2oo per mth. 4oo a mth is extortion for both phy n chem. n i don spend 10 on donations to PHS every single mth. n my blardy transport fee is alr included in my allowance. i don ask her for it, n shes gettin it fr my dad. i noe im soundin fcukin rude now bdn i cant b bothered. lik wad e fcuk she tnks shes doin. itx nt s if my dad owns a big company or wad ryt. he doesnt earn millions a yr, if ttx wad shes tnkin. i don gif a damn if she doesnt give me dinner cuz i show her attitude jz now. she came in. nagged. blah blah. ur always online. blah blah. i was doin my blardy coursework. if i had a choice i wldnt wan to do it.who's e one who wana sees results? who's the one who doesnt gif a damn hw much i try as long as my results suck? who's the one tt makes me dislike comin home everyday? who's the one tt make me jz wana linger outside as long as im not at home? who's the one tt restricts me in evryth i do? who's the one tt doesnt even give a darn abt my feelings? wadeva. im too pissed now to go n bother bt wad i wrote. okay. tis sounds stupid. bdn im stil gonna sy it-im sorry for saying all these. but i guess itx time i shd hv said it out. i jz don hv e courage to do so. bacgrd music now is wo xiang zi you. WO ZHEN DE XIANG ZI YOU. haiix. wadeber le lar. itx jz my luck my parents arent gettin along well. n itx my blardy fault cuz i increased their blardy expenses. n i reduced their blardy incomes. they definitely hv alot of accrued expenses. rwahahas. i cn actually stil get lame. hmm..actually wad hpned today jz proved hw much i was runnin away. wo lian zhen mian de kan ta dou bu gan. i was lookin evrywher. except- haiix. probably i cant forget. probably itx nt over yet. haha. i duno. itx nt exactly tt bad if it aint over. i'll jz b holdin onto an even emptier hope. HAHAHAHHA. tt sounds stupid. hey. i don sound like myself ryt. probably tis is the real me. i find it scary. probably cuz im damn angry now. i rarely type tis kinda shit. no lors', lehs' etc etc. so angmo.
okay la. chng bac liau. im much calmer le. haha..moodswings. uhlala. nw dn i realise im damn hungry lar.dinner? haha. no dinner no dinner lor. diet. rwahahahx. i tnk i v touchy nowadays lei. i gt pissed over some small matter jz nw. uh. don go don go lor. hahahaha anw..reli la. i din noe i'll respond e way i wld dang wo jian dao ta. uhh. lol..ta hen zao jiu zou le..you dian xiang ta. =X hahahax. din sy anyth. bdn..i'll b reli causin myself to hold onto mor emptier hopes. i alr holdin onto alot le. but im not considerin that again.it was hard. n anw, nw i totally don feel anyth le.mmm..haha..i v useless horx. wo mei yong la. hahahax. =P ke shi. ta. im stil on e process of GIVIN UP. OH. hahahaha. it seems to be takin forever. =P shuo lai hua oso chang la. HAHAHA. wo fang bu xia. bu guo wo yao ta kai xin. ru guo ta kai xin, wo ke neng fang de xia. bu guo. wo zhi dao. wo men meikeneng. i admitted to tt fact long ago =X ke shi wo zhi xiang shuo wo zhen de ai ni..erm. if u even chance upon tis ryt..i jz wana sy..i reli love you..n im missin u alot RIGHT NOW. HEY. why am i writin all these. sounds lik my last words/ crapp crapp. i jz wrote lotsa stuff i wldnt usually write . haha. i sound crazy today ryt. i'll go and FIND SOMETHING FOR MY DINNER. im seriously starvin. anw. im siao today. haha. so. todays entry is one of e most outrageous de. hehe. cia0z